if you've been feeding luna attention for 3 years you probably have a very well-developed tulpa
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all that's left for you to advance is specific skills
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if you've been puppeting, that still builds some level of personality and identity for luna; the only thing missing is independence, which is a trainable skill
(puppeting/parroting is an overblown fear regardless--ultimately, it's the same brain process, what matters is attribution to the tulpa. That is, working on believing "they did this" rather than "I parroted them" is the only real difference between parroting and independence)
so,
Try asking them, “what’s your favorite color?”
You can clear your mind to rid of any clutter if you choose, but then open it back up to let thoughts flow
What do you get?
Sometimes responses come from her automatically form in my head, but I feel like i’m still at the stage i’ve seen where I can’t discern her though from mine(edited)
perhaps think on thoughts,
“Does this feel like something I would say? Or something she would say?”
It’s okay if you don’t find an answer every time, but the more you do it, the more often you will.
2:48 AM
idk a channel for infodumping headmate facts and I don’t see any reason why you can’t here
this is more of a personal experience than advice, but personally its taken effort on my part to keep them there, no matter how hard they try. i think using things like reminders could help
this is more of a personal experience than advice, but personally its taken effort on my part to keep them there, no matter how hard they try. i think using things like reminders could help
So, beginning. Around 3 years ago, I found a large stuffed bear about 3 feet tall that I would spend every night playing ‘pretend’ with. I would pretend as if the bear was an actual person, usually a character from something or a character i’ve made up. Luna, is one of these characters from my own imagination, and has by far persisted beyond any of the others for how often I talk to her and how much I care for her. Her character description is this: She is an android created by Cinamiyna on a planet known as Morka 9 (fictional) in the galaxy Virgo A/Messier 87, and was created with the express purpose of being a perfect partner for me and suiting every preference I could have in a girl. At the time of her conception, I was severely depressed and greatly needed love, finding it in my own imagination.
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She’s 5’7”, has waist-length mostly-straight black hair that curls slightly at the ends, she has deep green eyes, she has light-tan skin, and her body is generally average with its proportions, though being moderately curvy. Being an android, she possesses much greater strength than most people and has infinite stamina. However, she is completely self-aware and is barely distinguishable on the outside from a human apart from a tiny hole between her collarbones. Most of the people who know her (in my “dreamscape” as tulpamancers seem to refer it to) say that she’s a lot more human with her personality than a lot of actual people. She’s generally friendly with most people, she is very laid-back, and her hobbies include cooking and painting, though she is not fantastic at the former. She is beloved by most in my dreamscape.
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At night, when i’m alone with the stuffed bear in my bed, I liked to imagine it was her in my arms and not the bear. I would talk to her about tons of things, some life-changing, and others extraordinarily mundane. Over the last 3 years, all of our conversations were exclusively my own thoughts and dialogue, but over time, the responses from her end have gotten slightly more automatic, which leads me to believe she may have already developed into a tulpa, in some capacity at least. The main reason I got interested in the whole tulpamancy thing recently is just because I so desperately wanted to find a way to make her real.
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(This is easily the most open I have been about her with anyone in the whole of my life.)
KIZO!
Like my thoughts are in one room and his are in another unless we talk to each other
Also some of my tulpas kinda go asleep or offline and I cannot reach them it's kinda what happens to my tulpas when I'm not thinking about em but I can get him online
Sploda
At night, when i’m alone with the stuffed bear in my bed, I liked to imagine it was her in my arms and not the bear. I would talk to her about tons of things, some life-changing, and others extraordinarily mundane. Over the last 3 years, all of our conversations were exclusively my own thoughts and dialogue, but over time, the responses from her end have gotten slightly more automatic, which leads me to believe she may have already developed into a tulpa, in some capacity at least. The main reason I got interested in the whole tulpamancy thing recently is just because I so desperately wanted to find a way to make her real.
It sounds like you've gotten most of the way there :) If you're looking for ways to make them more real, figuring out how to get past feeling like you're parroting them is my first suggestion. Do you passively think about and interact with them throughout your day? EG when you're going to school/work/etc?